Saturday, May 29, 2010

Sending Love and Light



Some of you reading this post do know Hallie and family personally.   If you are like me, you 'know' Hallie and her family through the World Wide Web. 

I first 'met' Hallie back in 2007 when she joined the Air Force Parents online support group.
  Others reading this have come to know her through her blog, The Wonderful World of Wieners.

Back in 2007 Hallie shared with the AF group that she 'started her blog before CJ left to keep him updated on us and everyone else updated on him'.

Certainly that she did !!  Her open sharing of her family life with John, CJ, Connor, Danielle (CJ's fiancee) and the Wieners has endeared hundreds of followers.

On April 15th, with CJ's suicide, their world went dark.   Word started to spead that CJ had died.  On the AF support group, on Face Book.    It would be 3 weeks after that Hallie publicly stated on her Face Book page......        "The song was wrong, suicide is not painless".

Hallie has shared the raw and agonizing emotions of a Mothers loss of her son.   People who know her in person, and hundreds of online friends have been there with words of support.   Messages posted to her personal blog, messages shared on her Face Book page, messages posted on the Air Force group, private emails, candle sites, several memorial sites.

Speaking as an online friend, I would like to describe how CJ's passing has affected me.    My heart has felt like a huge hand went right through my chest and grabbed a hold of my heart.   I have pictured any of my children in the same place.   I know I am not alone with this gut wrenching helpless feeling.   

Every person who knows of CJ's death has felt it too.


Thursday night, I had a HUGE REVELATION.  
      I was watching TV, got up from the couch, grabbed a pen and paper and started to write . . . . . .



"We're draining Hallie"     -----    We need to empower her.   

The horror and dread is being re-lived and sent back to Hallie.   We are using our imagination to put ourselves in her place, and by doing so, instead of sending Hallie and family OUR LOVE AND GOOD ENERGY, we are unintentionally sending them our pain.

"What we need to do is find a positive affirmation that can be repeated by everyone when a thought of CJ, Hallie, John, Connor, Danielle and their family comes into our mind."

I located a blog post by Mark Anthony .....    The Circle of Light.

From the post...   The Circle of Light ~

A Circle of Light occurs when spiritual people gather together to pray and meditate to achieve a positive result. This is a means of raising your vibrational energy in harmony with like minded individuals in order to create a whole greater than the sum of the parts.....

From the beginning of time people have utilized the power of a Circle of Light. A Circle of Light occurs whenever people join to pray for peace, healing or devotional purposes. Hindus collectively chant the names of God. Buddhists meditate as a group. Catholics pray the rosary in unison. Christian prayer rings. Muslims praying together five times a day. All of these form a Circle of Light.


Every one of us who cares about Hallie and her family has the ability
to BE a..............


  * POINT OF HEALING LIGHT IN THIS CIRCLE *


PLEASE do grab this graphic.    Print it out and find some place you can
display it as a reminder.........   Share it on your blog, share it on Face Book. 



Love and Light

*  A very special THANK YOU to Mark Anthony for his permission to share his words. 


On Mother’s Day, Hallie, John and Connor, as a family, made the decision to participate in the “Out of the Darkness Overnight. This
is a walk sponsored by the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention
that they learned about through Hallie’s brother, David. After hearing
about this walk, they made the decision to take this journey, together,
as a family. Over the course of the last week, with the Twomey family’s blessing, the team has grown to include some of Hallie and John’s family as well as some of their closest friends.

They are NEAR their team goal of $20,000. 



5 comments:

Patricia - Spiritual Journey Of A Lightworker said...

Deb, you are such a blessing to so many people. I don't know Hallie and her family and I will envision them all being surrounded by a Circle of love and light.

Debbie said...

Deb, I believe you are right. We do need to focus on sending Hallie healing thoughts. We are doing all we know how to do and we still feel helpless. I will now think of this instead of seeing Hallie's crying face in my head. This is something we can all do together and you are wonderful to do this. God bless you...

Patti Roehrle said...

Sending love and light... ~/~

Michelle said...

Thank you, Deb. good point. We need to raise that whole family up. Sending love and light.

Debra Estep said...

Thanks ladies for your ♥ heartfelt ♥ comments.
If you look at the graphic I created, you will see that the inner circle is the whitest light....
then comes the points of light in the yellow ring,
migrating out to Hallie and family.
I'm challenged sometimes when it comes to making
a graphic. THAT one took me close to 2 hours. :)
Challenged, BUT very determined. LOL
L & L
Deb